I recently saw a new job posting at a GREAT company that I have applied to in the past. Yes, I currently have a job. It pays the bills. However, I don’t see myself spending the rest of my career here. So, I filled out the online application and submitted my resume. “WHY?” you ask: Well.. What’s the worst that could happen? They aren’t interested in me, I keep the job I have, and nothing changes? I’m pretty sure the answer is a no brainer!
Lately I’ve been feeling very overwhelmed. I don’t know if there have been too many extra activities, work is started to continually doubt my own feelings. I compare myself to other people (never a good idea) and say, “If they can do it, why can’t I?” I think, “maybe there is something wrong with me”. For so long, I have been crippled by fear. Afraid of change (good or bad), afraid of the unknown, afraid of what people will think. My group video last night spoke about trusting yourself, and trusting God. If something doesn’t feel right, it’s not! My feelings are valid, more stressful than normal, or my priorities have changed.. But the other day I ‘snapped’. I felt like I was failing at everything, and the things that I felt were most important weren’t being accomplished. I needed change, and I couldn’t take it anymore. It took me a while to get to this point, because I and I should not ignore them. I don’t want to live in fear! Fear is the absence of faith, and I want to live faithfully.
I recently began a weight loss journey with a group of some of my favorite women from church. It is an amazing program that helps you break your food addictions/habits, and transform yourself in the way God intended for YOU! It has been a GREAT experience for me, sharing and learning. We are not all the SAME person, and we ALL require different things. It is up to us to find out what those things are. With all the media and chaos nowadays, it is sometimes hard to figure out where to even START.
I have been able to take a deeper look at the choices I have been making, my current/future relationship with God, and the life I WANT to live. These first six weeks have been pretty tricky. It has REALLY been scary, eye-opening, and TOTALLY worth it!
When I started on Pinterest (you know, BEFORE it was an app on everyone‘s phone *wink* and you had to actually be INVITED *double wink*), I only used it to plan parties more efficiently with my friends. Now everyone and their mother is on, which does make pinning a more fun adventure, and has opened a vast of new ideas & opportunities into my life.
But.. It did bring up a dilemma for me.